I kind of jumped in last time talking about getting out and about, doing some normal things, and trying to move forward. I am going to back up a little bit and tell you what I felt in the beginning. To know the whole story I did write a book, My Loss, God’s Promises. It tells more but I am going to share some of the first days for those who are just beginning this journey.
When I first lost my husband I could barely breathe. I really did not want to breathe but I kept on living. I was angry at God for letting him die. I was disappointed in God by not giving me what I wanted. I hurt. I cried until my head felt like it would explode, took some pills for the pain, and then cried some more.
In our hurry up world, when everything is fast food, instant service, faster WIFI speeds and everyone and everything is at lightning speed, grief is not. Grief moves along at its own pace and shows up whenever it wants, wherever it wants and however it wants.
I don’t know about you, but I get really tired of grief showing its ugly face when least expected. The other day I was at Wal Mart. They were playing music from the 70’s and I was not really paying attention until suddenly I recognized the song that was playing from when we dated. There, right smack dab in the middle of the underwear department, I started crying. Not just a few boo-hoos but really sobbing.
I have a long ways to go in learning this blogging thing and in the walk through grief. I am still amazed that it can take so long for healing of the wounds of grief. Without God, those of us who have lost someone would have problems indeed.
These will get better and longer. I have more but I want to find the right path before too much longer.
This will be a little bit about the continued journey through the path of grief. Grief has no definition of how long it takes to heal. As long as we keep moving, we will win!
This post will definitely be a short one because I am in the learning phase of setting up a blog. Website is working but not sure about the remainder.
I want to share my walk with you as I am still learning, growing and healing.
This will be my post page, but there will be other areas that will cover things like taking a word and expanding knowledge, and sharing other interests.
There will be new posts weekly to share the journey of life and showing you God’s promises and blessings. This will definitely change as I in the knowledge of blogging. Right now my head is spinning, so hang on for the ride.