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New to the Journey

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I kind of jumped in last time talking about getting out and about, doing some normal things, and trying to move forward. I am going to back up a little bit and tell you what I felt in the beginning. To know the whole story I did write a book, My Loss, God’s Promises. It tells more but I am going to share some of the first days for those who are just beginning this journey.

When I first lost my husband I could barely breathe. I really did not want to breathe but I kept on living. I was angry at God for letting him die. I was disappointed in God by not giving me what I wanted. I hurt. I cried until my head felt like it would explode, took some pills for the pain, and then cried some more.

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You never just “get over it”

In our hurry up world, when everything is fast food, instant service, faster WIFI speeds and everyone and everything is at lightning speed, grief is not. Grief moves along at its own pace and shows up whenever it wants, wherever it wants and however it wants.

I don’t know about you, but I get really tired of grief showing its ugly face when least expected. The other day I was at Wal Mart. They were playing music from the 70’s and I was not really paying attention until suddenly I recognized the song that was playing from when we dated. There, right smack dab in the middle of the underwear department, I started crying. Not just a few boo-hoos but really sobbing.

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